And again...

Well, no baby on deck last month, so we're trying again.  I'm on day two of this month's dose of Serophene and I feel like shit.  I take the pill early in the morning and by 10am my vision is blurry, I have a headache and I'm nauseated.  I'm also fairly certain that my usually very low blood pressure is elevated.  The tight feeling in my ears makes me think my head is going to explode. 
Around 2 or 3pm, I expect to feel dizzy and have the first of several hot flashes. 
This will go on for three more days.  On the sixth day, when I stop taking the Serophene, I'll feel fine.  Then, a few days later, I'll feel a little draggy and tired and maybe have little twinges in my abdomen.  That's about the time I'm supposed to feel sexy and ready to make a baby.  Five days of "do-it-now" sex and then ten more days of waiting to see if we got it right.  I really don't know which sucks more, the crappy way I feel from the drug or the dread I feel about the results oriented sex.  No matter how much (or little) fun we have completing our assignment, I worry afterward the way I worried after tests in high school - did I get it completely right?  Did I dot every "i" and cross every "t"? 
As if all of that isn't enough, seeing as I'm a world-class worrier, I then worry that I have gotten pregnant and I fret over every thing I put in my mouth, every aspirin, every glass of wine.  Stop drinking the wine?  Oh, Hell no.  That (and chocolate) may be the only things keeping me together every month.
So, here we go again.  Yet another month where I will spend five days torturing my poor husband with panicked ovulation kit readings.  Let's hope it's the last. 

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[Saratica]

Man. I had it so easy.